I put a lot of thought into this one. I'm one of those people who takes a lot of pictures of random stuff, and occasionally I go back over my photos and reminisce about whatever I'm looking at. Consequently I've got a ton of pictures documenting my life, the good and the bad. So it is any wonder why I agonized over this post for a while? There are literally hundreds of pictures that bring a smile to my face and make me happy. Obviously a lot of them involve my late wife, and while for a while I couldn't even look at those photos, they do now bring a smile to my face because I no longer associate those pictures with loss. They are now what they were before she died...happy memories. So the more I sat here and looked through pictures, ones taken long ago and ones taken more recently, I realized that I should pick one that reflects my happiness now. I've turned to a new chapter in my life and recently became happy again. While one should never forget or try to erase the past, I also cannot, and do not want to, live in the past, as that chapter has ended. So I decided to find a picture that was taken more recently, one that I could look at and say to myself "I look happy there" and not only say that, but still feel that happiness as I look at it. So here is the picture I came up with.
This is a picture of my girlfriend Jessi and I taken at The Hard Rock Chicago a few weeks ago. Jessi and I decided to stay downtown and accomplish some bucket list items. This was one of the best weekends I had in longer than I could remember. Even though I think I look kinda crappy in this picture, it reminds me of this amazing weekend we had. It was a long road for me to find happiness and what do you know...that light at the end of the tunnel wasn't a freight train after all! So while I have tons of pictures that bring a smile to my face, this one here not only brings a smile, but makes me happy, for it shows me happy where I am in my life at this moment, and not how I was in the past.
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